no matter how hard i try, i cant seem to be able to.

believe me when i say i do try.

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i've come to a few conclusions:
1) its really quite stupid to try to make someone see your point when time and again the person doesnt get it. thats the whole reason why they never got it, and will probably never.
2) insecurities manifests itself in more ways than one.
3) people who dont deserve what they have only have it because of this thing called grace.
4) saying the right things doesnt make things right.
5) some people cant appreciate strange people.
6) despite trying not to bother, i still do.
7) people who claim they would be foreverfriends, are the ones who never last more than a year.
8) the friends you were never able to click when you first meet, usually become the closest people to you.
9) having the person not see your point is probably the more infuriating thing in the world.
10) everything is a matter of priority. there's no such thing as no time.

i know, they all seem quite random.

my thoughts are so cluttered i dont quite know where to start whenever i talk to a close friend and try to tell them stuff.

my room is like this warzone. i have clothes strewn everywhere, pens at every available space on the table, and notes, books, bags everywhere.
i've counted. i have a total of 11 bags here in my room with me now.
i would love for my shoes to outnumber my bags, haha, but sadly the shoe collection looks pretty pathetic for now.
i'm still looking for pretty ballet pumps and hopefully a pair of pointy striped keds.

i'm been so busy i think i've been mia-ing at alot of things.
lunch, dinner etc etc. no time to go to parties, no mood.
3 people have commented on how exhausted i am, 2 have asked me if i lost weight.
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i think its the stress.

i should be in bed now.
but there's just so much to think about.
futile, i know. but i'd love to think that thinking would make a difference.
though i know it wouldnt.

i'm really tempted to fly home for the 2 weeks in july.
i have decided i'm not going to fly back for my 21st after all.
exams are more important.
i'm really really really tempted to do the july thing.
2 weeks is terribly short, but a belated celebration with mommy and daddy is better than no at all.
so if i ultimately decide to do the 2 weeks thing, it wont be that long before i see you guys.
8 weeks to the end of sem, 1 week study break, 2 weeks exams, then i'll be home.

i miss you my mommy/daddy/mei/girlfriends/angeline/wifey/fifi/cow/hannah/cons.
AH!

♥ fancy pink
in vintage.