damnit i hate the way you destroy me.

after the ups and downs, thick and thin and suddenly i see this disappear before my eyes; i see a total transformation from being the best one ever to the disgustingly unimaginable.

to think you were once so hungry for it and now you throw it up like poison down your throat.

i'm utterly disappointed, deeply saddened by what has happened.

the human heart, there's only so much you can destroy; or so i thought.

damnit, where's the liberation.

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woke up an hour late today and missed breakfast so ophee got me this 2 huge muffins and an apple:)

and we were like 10 min late for the fremantle tour-the bus left without us! walked to trinity for nothing. and we walked back and joined the hall wildlife park tour.

the bus was super old school. complete with cloth seats and metal bars. but we had fun.

the wildlife park was cool and i saw wombats for the first time. they're like this big mass of fluff and look so big and cuddly and floppy-the fall if you move your hand. and everyone took turns to carry the wombat-except me, of course. and everyone took pictures with the koalas and kangaroos except me again. i'm afraid of animals la, so while everyone went "so cute!" at the creatures, i went "so cute!" at the babies who also went on the tour:)

oh i rode on a camel! with ophee:) and our camel ran away when the parkkeeper left its leash untied. ophee and i were like ohmanohmanohman and the parkkeeper had to come chase after it lol.

i had fun. the great aussie barbecue had more food than people haha and we were talking about how it didnt feel like we were here to study but more of a tour. we better have fun before school starts on monday!

daddy and mommy left this morning and i think i saw their plane in the sky when we were at the bbq:) it was the same airline and same flight time.

i'm busted and burnt and missing you.






and i wonder how you are over there.

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still my one and only, and always will be.

iloveyou.

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i talked to cow last night! i miss you like crazy dear girl:(

so i decided not to go for breakfast this morning. woke at 8 then lazed in bed till 9 when i fell asleep again. and slept till 11. my room phone kept ringing and so were ple knocking on my door for guildoday. and pam got her aussie no but i didnt know so i msged her sg no and as a result she had to wait at the tunnel for me and i had 15 missed calls.

man, i feel damn bad now.

guild oday was cool. and as the typical singaporean kiasu girl i took like freebies and all just for the sake of it. HAHA.

ophee and the rest went shopping but i couldnt go cos uncle bob invited us for dinner tonight before mommy and daddy flies off tmr. and then i'd be here alone till i go home for easter.






i dont know what went wrong on your side and if this continues, you should know whats gonna happen. i dont do this kind of goodbyes.

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timetable is finally settled.

i look at it and i see myself having no social life for the next 5 years. sigh.

all the lecturers and all keep reminding us that meddent is hardwork, that its so easy to get kicked out or retained; how welcoming is that.

our dent welcome package has this cute little container of floss thats so tiny and xrays of teeth and keys (yeah i dont know why its keys either). and there's handbook thing that the seniors wrote and one page said,

"being a first year student is like being a lamb sent to the slaughterhouse. ignorance is bliss"

haha. ohwell. first year as compared to the rest of the years is supposed to be super slack. but i look at my timetable and i know sooner or later eyebags are gonna come back. BLAH.

i miss you all.

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i feel like i have been here for months.

went for more talks today and they brought us to tour to ohcwa. its beautiful i cant wait to start clinicals and labs there:)

and we had to walk all the way from meddent fac to guild village to check out our medical checkup. goodness its so far it feels like walking from nus sci fac to arts canteen. past central forum. serious, pamela if you're reading this, get a car! haha or we should hire a buggy. WE NEED IT LAH.

and then we walked ALL THE WAY back to hall. and i was going to sleep when mommy and daddy came with stuff for me and they stayed for awhile:) dinner today sucked and we all wanted to pon the night games by hurrying off to our room. i wanted to catch up on sleep when i found out that it was COMPULSORY. so oh well i called the rest and we went down for games.

i realised my general knowledge sucked. oh well, i knew that long ago, but today was worse haha. but i was half dead the entire time. then ophee darling came and i had fun being crazy and playing with minties:) haha.

our group lost finally! and we were so damn happy cos it meant we got to go to sleep. the guys must hate us LOL.

gonna skip breakfast tomorrow and go straight for my dent thingy. latenightshopping at suburbs tomorrow! if i dont fall sick, that is. SIGH i need sleep i need sleep i need sleep.

more admin stuff tmr. more vaccinations and blood tests sigh.



i wonder why its so easy for you to give me up.

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as of today, i've officially been here for a week. i survived! and not home sick yet. hopefully, never.

skipped breakfast today cos my enrolment only starts after lunch. had to wake up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet and i was so freaked out. the old old toilet:( sigh.

had orientation yesterday for all the international students and we filled up the entire LT. like 90% was asians it felt just like sitting in a lecture in nus haha. and we met our coursemates. there are only 6 international students in my course. and 2 from singapore, including me. thank God i have erica to go lectures with:) the other 4 were from 4 different countries- malaysia, sri lanka, hong kong, and shanghai.

i need to do my laundry soon cos its piling up in my room. and it doesnt help that i have no laundry bag:( sigh. housework. i'm quite proud of myself though; i boil water everyday!!! lol. cos the water dispenser here has no hot water. its all cold:(

lunch was good we had laksa! it was quite authentic.

i'm missing singapore's humid humid humid weather:(

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its been awhile since i blogged.

being here isnt as bad as i thought it'd be, but neither is it good.

its summer, but the wind is so cold and i go everywhere with a sweater. i even sleep with a sweater, hows that. heaters only work in winter, so i cant turn it on:( haha. the weather is so dry my whole body is peeling la. i use olive oil like its free and moisturize like mad.

the spiders here are huge and everywhere, but pretty harmless. their legs are thin like threads of hair and they have tiny bodies, but just that their legs are so long it looks weird.

oh and i had my first meal in hall today:) haha of chicken thigh and potato wedges. wasnt as bad as i thought la, but super unhealthy. and then we kinda ponned the first orientation game. and i missed the night orientation game again cos ross and joselyn invited us for dinner so i didnt eat with hall so i feel super out of place now:( but dinner was great. the yummiest pork ribs i ever eaten and tom yam soup. ooh, singapore food:)

orientation's starting tmr in school. i'm looking forward to lectures proper. at least then time will pass quickly cos i will be so busy. and guess what? i realised i may have to dissect foetal pigs for one of my modules. and each student keeps one foetal pig for the entire length of the module. OH MAN.

i havent got my aussie line yet, so still on autoroam and i can just picture my bill already. its crazy really. sorry guys, will let you all know my aussie no when i get it okay.




i feel you arent trying hard enough.

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first, i'm sorry to all those who i didnt have time to meet up with. and those who i didnt reply yr msgs or took one day plus to reply.

i'm sorry. i really am.

my luggage is crazy big. and i still dont have space. sigh.

i tell you the stuff that went in.
50 plus tops, almost 20 bottoms, 43 earrings, 5 pairs of footwear, stationery (3 files, my pencil case, coloured pens case, hole puncher etc), 2 big tubes of toothpaste, one big bottle of shampoo and one big bottle of soap, one winter jacket, 3 sweaters, 2 textbooks, make up, lotions, lip balm, medication, hangers, soap powder, 5 slabs of tissue paper, 6 bottles of contact lens solution, calender, photo frame, loads of pictures, 3 bags, and barang like clothing hooks, wall pins, torchlight, candles blah blah blah.

now you know why i say i packed almost EVERYTHING.

i'll be in the airport in 6 hours. will go to bed soon.

thank you lovelies for all the gifts, cards, pictures, and lovely sms-es. and to my 2 students who gave me this really sweet card-you guys make teaching chem even better though i still would have loved it anyways.

thank you bestie for taking leave to spend the day with me(: hurry up go for driving lessons and drive your girl around(: being chauffeured beats anything. especially by you(:

take care guys, my email will come shortly. till then, all my love.


and if you get there before i do,
dont give up on me.
i'll be there when my chores are through,
i dont know how long i'd be. (yes i do, its 5 years)
but i'm not gonna let you down. (i promise, i wont)
darling wait and see. (dont have to wait to see)
and between now and then, till i see you again, (in april!)
i'll be loving you, LOVE ME. (yes of cos, forever and ever baby)

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entire sunday afternoon was spent packing. its crazy.

from the hole puncher thats been collecting dust on my table, to plasters to flasks to blutack to paperclips to pictures to photoframes, EVERYTHING is going into my luggage.

i'm even bringing my uni labcoat and goggles lah. can you believe it.

dad even got this extension cord (or whatever you call it) so i can multi plug everything and use my laptop, charge my phone, and boil water all at once.

i need to buy scotch tape and develop more photos for my hall room.

i cant believe the amount of stuff i am bringing. lol.

you guys should seriously see it. i'm not kidding man.

LOL.

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everyone please go get skype(:

its so cool i wonder why i never discovered it earlier.

and then i can see you guys and talk to u guys just like we're right in front of each other. and we could talk to each other like almost every night!

oh man. so cool(:

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its 3.18 am and i just talked to hannah on skype:)

oh man we both started screaming when we saw each other's faces and i talked to her for more than an hour. its been 8 months or so but nothing's changed. she's still the hannah i know and i feel so comfortable when i'm talking to her:)

i love you girl! i know you're reading this!


skype rocks man. for ple like me who have bestfriends all the way across the ocean.

OHMANHANNAHILOVEYOU!

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went shopping with mom today and despite daddy not believing that we could do much in 2 and a half hours, mom and i bought enough stuff to kinda shock him HAHA.

and then i went to get my prom dress from joyce. she gave me this prints box and so i assumed it was a prints notebook.

went to reunion dinner after and kinda said some goodbyes. my two little cousins each gave me a little letter and one made this really cute bookmark. the letters were so sweet they go something like this:

dear jie jie,
i will miss you. have a good time in australia. please come back soon. i will be waiting for you.

and i was like awwww.

and then i got home and i opened joyce's and amanda's prints box.

OHMYGOSH thank you girls the pictures and scrapbook sheets are SO SWEET. i will bring it over to aussie:) i didnt even know you guys met up to do it:))))) it really made me smile:)

so i'm back home now packing more stuff in. i dont know why it seems so neverending. i keep putting in more stuff, and it seems like i just have much more to go. sigh.

i'm gonna miss cny and vallie's:(

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my dear girl,

your email made me cry. very badly.

i want you to know, that i havent forgotten how close we once were, how much we once shared, and how much you once meant to me.

i'm sorry things are not that way anymore.

i may be leaving, but some things never change. this will always be home, and the friends that leave their mark so deeply on my heart will always be treasured. i'm glad you're one of them.

the rest are said in my email.

i hurt too, and i want you to know that once day, i know we'll be happy again.

i love you and i thank God for everything we've been through.

long void deck chats, 293 bus rides, eating ice cream at the small macs, phone calls, movies, shopping, etc etc etc i will always remember.

X0X0X0

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finally met up with cow for lunch and then amanda and joyce for dinner:)

its weird when you're leaving, really.

all my life i see people around me leaving, and you meet up with them before they leave, and you ask them if they have packed their bags. you tell them to remember to keep in touch, and you find it so hard for them to leave. now its the other way round. people meet up with me, they ask me hows packing going, etc etc. but the similarity? i still find it hard when i am the one leaving.

we were walking after dinner and amanda said," this is the last thursday you're gonna be here" and suddenly i realised how soon it all was. not that i didnt realise before, but it just seemed more real.

i'm sad to leave, but i know its the best for me, and i wont let you down.

i promise to write frequently, to update you all on whats been happening ok. those of you who want to be included in the mass email i send periodically do let me know:)



everything i've been through, use it for Your glory.

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okay, so finally there are more finalised plans to meeting. haha but it seems rather late. oh well.

meeting cowcowcow for lunch tomorrow and joyce and amanda for dinner:)

and i have this super nice (well, it was supposed to turn out nice) present for cow and i've been so excited about giving it to her. ah! i cant wait:) i hope i even remember to bring it haha.

and joyce and amanda, we said during our last meeting (the stupid duckweed movie one haha) that hopefully the next time we meet it wont be only at joyce's birthday. and LOOK NOW HOW! haha we're only meeting when i am leaving lah.

did more packing today and had one tuition. i look at the amount of clothes n books i am bringing and it stuns me haha. to think i havent packed shoes and bags in yet. but i'm decided to be practical and just bring one pair of flats, my papillio, bathroom slippers and formal shoes for my clinicals. no point bringing like different coloured flats (or heels) to match different outfits. waste space waste effort and contradicts my decision to dress simply and spend more time studying.

sigh.

i'm looking forward to seeing you:)




its Your blood, that took my place, in redeeming sacrifice.

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this time next week, i'd be in a plane getting ready to land.

its happening wayyy too fast. i still havent packed most of my clothes.
neither have i met up with most ple:(

stuff on everyday, and i still have to send 3 of my pants for alteration later.

dinner with joel and my girly girly girlfriend andrew on sunday and then The Sisters Day Out with mei yesterday. i had fun:)

what would i do without my lovely mei. DARLING hurry start saving you MUST come and visit me and bunk in with me:)))))

i have effectively gained one kg (i think) just drinking full cream milk whenever i am hungry late at night or early in the morning these days. looks like my plan to gain back my weight is going well. i am happy:)

i miss you terribly, bestie.



so tell me its gonna be alright.

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yes i struggle. and i try to appear like nothing's wrong.

-

anw i had an awesome time with you today bestie:)
please stop singing the "she's leaving on a jet plane" song cos though it makes me laugh, it makes me sad. heh.
thanks for bothering to make me smile and taking pictures though you hate it.

you're officially pet's pet HAHA.
as much as you hate being called it.

i hope it goes away soon. BLAH.

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oh man please dont dont dont bring me back to that time.

ibegyou. please. DONT.

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yes i failed.

and you know why? cos i stupidly went to strike the kerb TWICE. which is more than i ever did strike any kerb in all my time at the driving centre. i was so freaking nervous during the test. and i did perfectly fine during my warm up.

DAMN. and i got one of the toughest test route. the prev instructors all told me that was the toughest test route and the stupid person went to draw my name for that test route.

i dont even have the time to take again. sigh. shit the kerb and shit those people who didnt give way to me in the circuit. isnt it the unspoken rule to give way to everyone on test. BLAH.

both mommy and daddy laughed when i told them what happened. daddy even said i should have told the tester to pass me cos it wasnt my fault haha. i was so looking forward to driving daddy home from tuition today when he came to pick me:( and i told him that. and he was like, maybe i'd have to grab hold of the handle for my life. LOL.

had a nice breakfast with mommy and a nice dinner with daddy after:) i learnt my lesson. i will not book any more tests during peak hour if i can help it.

so i woke at 6 plus all these mornings for nothing. ARGH. and daddy drove me all the way there all these mornings for nothing either. double argh.

so now i am sleep deprived, and without a license to make up for it.

man, dont i sound so pathetic.

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