the lack of blogging for the past few days was because of it all; the fall, the after effect.

sometimes it becomes really humbling, to know that at the end of the day, i'm really nothing.
nothing matters, nothing that i've achieved or fought for.
because if He gives, He takes away.

no beauty doesnt matter.
because beauty is fleeting.
you have it one day, then you lose it.
you become unattractive and shrivelled, sometimes because of an ugly pair of sunnies, sometimes because you fade.
like someone i know once put it; the leaves that fall to the ground.
yes, that kinda fall.

2008 is here.
of which i've officially started at my uncle's clinic.
probably the lousiest dental assistant ever- because no one officially taught me what to do i've just to pick up things along the way.
i'm counting the days in which i fly back to aussie, the days to which i will have no life, yet i dont know why in ways going back will vindicate.

shanghai was pretty alright, thanks to my dear cousin angelineyyyy.
all the cam whoring, the anti-cheenapokness, the anti adults nagging, and her bid to convert me from long island to hoegaarden.
i think sooner or later i'm going to swear off liquor and start on booze.
shopping wasnt great because we only went on ONE DAY, but i managed to buy a few things.
juicy couture panties(in this really cute box, each for a day of the week lol), an A&F jumper, a tunic dress and a bag(i think i was cheated).
mommy and daddy managed to achieve their motive for going to shanghai, so i feel happy for them too.
mommy and daddy happy means their one and only darling gets more moolah. lol.

its about a month or so before i return.
trying to get daddy to push my flight forward then mommy started to hyperventilate and refused to let me go because i-miss-you-so-much-how-can-you-go?
wifey whines too.
so yeah, i may just not be able to fly there earlier after all.
please remind me to remind my son to pick me from the perth airport so that little one wont forget and arrange to work on that day then i'd get stranded at the airport.
still figuring out how to bring one years worth of stuff over this time with no parents flying over with me.
like 4 winter jackets+tons of summery clothes+one year's supply of toiletries and makes up and shoes.

got to see a few LA ops so far and uncle joe makes everything look so easy.
then i wonder if i'll ever be able to get to that stage.
to do an op in under half an hour. he's impressive.
its been awhile since i saw an implant though.
hopefully i get to see one soon.

i miss quite a few people.
miss hearing gertrude's laughter, miss having her shout "pet" and give me a big hug everyday.
miss abi baby's low baritone voice and old things in her room, miss everything about her.
miss going to fcc every sunday and worshipping, miss the growth miss the walk.
miss gf and the times of old.
miss my sunset eyes, her bitching, our fantabulous grand plans for our future, growing old and doing each other's teeth.
miss going back to my currie room each day, miss the familiarity of it all.
miss nedlands every week, miss the sharing miss the fellowship.

now sunset eyes tells me she doesnt wanna go back to aussie.
:(

singapore has been trying.
yet i'm growing.
at snail's pace.
but i'll get there.
wifey, thanks for everything.
one year ago i never thought we'd be this close. i never thought we'd get to the stage we'd share everything, msg 24/7, meet in between appts, meet to pray meet to talk meet to rubbish meet to see me cry lol.
i'd never get this far without you, really.
and i look forward to many more years of happyness till you decide to dump me for one of your 14 guys(see the number is constantly growing!)lol.

dr. chew changed my modules and put on what wifey calls a power chain.
which means, i will deband in 3 weeks.
which means, i will get to see my pearly whites and stop looking like a teenager:)
:)

its been fast, the time i spent here.
got to spend time with some really really precious people.
others, maybe not.
but things have changed and i'm not complaining about certain stuff because i've moved on too.
tomorrow i will see my tall girls:)
i cant wait! i havent seen them since like dont know when or caught up or whatever.

auntie audrey msged me to organize a tea gathering at her new place for all the aunties and girl cousins. so one thing for me to look forward to.
mommy wants to perm her hair into big curls. another thing for me to look forward to lol. not that i'd be doing the perming, but its big curls. who isnt excited to see big curls? lol.

things are very awry,
i've lost.
sooner than i thought i would.
fighting to see reality in ways,
and i will.
because i want to.



you know what?
fifi is coming. on friday.
talk about dear friends of old, friends that will always be so special.
love you fifi, i cant wait.

♥ fancy pink
in vintage.