i seem to be undergoing severe depression resulting from delayed response of my ugly ugly hair.
my very ugly hair.
it doesnt help that whenever i look at photos of old, every photo of the last 4 years is me in long hair.
the ugly short hair now just makes me feel uglier than i already feel.
plus everyone(from my aunties to my friends) exclaim how different i look; the look of which i interpret as shock and dismay at how hideous my hair now looks.

so, as i have said the past few entries, the only thing making me happy these days are my perfume which i think smells like a greentea plantation(apparently only i think so), and my papaya soap- courtesy of my wifey.
you know how in magazines they have those articles which talk about how the smells around you affect your mood, thinking, concentration etc etc etc? i think i should write an article about how greentea and papaya elevates feelings of happiness. maybe it has something to do with serotonin levels. hah.

so after my classmates have told me how each one of them did for the exams, i feel like a whole big piece of stupid, brainless, crap. not that i deserve to do any better, but well, you get my point.

so back to what i was saying,
i'm perpetually in this i-need-to-go-back-to-perth-or-get-out-of-here mood.
right now its 70% due to my ugly, yes very ugly hair. 30% due to issues of old.
and i know after i blog this entry about how my VERY UGLY HAIR is ruining my life, half of those who read is gonna think i am nuts because- how can a hairstyle affect her so much?
obviously if you're gonna think that way then you dont care very much about personal grooming. not that i'm a sucker for it, but i care enough to know when i look screwed up.

besides, as i have said, issues of old screw me up.
so basically if a nice haircut would help me feel better, i should have it.
except that, as nice a haircut at this time wouldnt bring back all my lost tresses.


OH LONG LONG HAIR, WHERE ARE YOU.
i'm just gonna have to settle for my greentea perfume and papaya soap.





i really am not loony.
i'm just in a oh-i'm-just-gonna-eat-worms mood.
yeah, as always huh.

haha.

♥ fancy pink
in vintage.