Tuesday, August 21, 2007 @7:27 PM
so i am exhausted.
today's the first attempt we made to study for opdent and mgc tests at the medlib. of cos, as usual erica and i ended up talking and talking but at least i read like 2 sets of notes(which is damn pathetic i know, but ITS A START).
i realised when you havent properly studied since alevels, you kind of forget how to.
opdent lab was, disappointing.
i ended up being so damn affected and so damn upset. blah.
clinic was great.
we did plaque disclosing on each other.
i finally got to be at the other end of the chair, wear the mask and gloves, use the triple syringe, saliva ejector, and all. but it'd be like year3 before we actually get to drill inside a real person i think.
we ended up with bright pink teeth. ah, so fun.
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its been a time of self discovery, i would say.
i've learnt that apathy is a dirty word.
dont go all apathetic on me. i dont like it.
some, who were never expected to disappoint, actually did.
pretty badly too.
i did all i could to save it, though i'm miles across the ocean.
i've said it before, will say it again.
i'll only go to such lengths for people who matter.
i've fought hard enough to salvage this.
obviously on your part you cant be bothered.
you and the little excuses you give?
obviously shows you're confused and afraid,
for the silliest reason ever, which i can never understand.
you know how its like in primary school, when you have one of those petty misunderstandings, and the other party goes and tells other people about the little fight. and things become blown up because of all the small talk about it?
i remember how our friendship was lost partly due to the fact i didnt like how you handled things. it wasnt in primary school anymore, but i remember how little petty arguments always got blown up either because you told like all your other friends, or because you couldnt settle it with us.
i can truly say i regret losing that friendship.
we were close then, very close.
but maybe too different.
and at that time, i certainly didnt like the way you operated.
suddenly i remember you, i remember us.
and i know how different things would be now if you didnt keep wanting to be the popular girl or tried to tell everyone about being unhappy with us in the little ways.
its the things in life, you have to learn to know what to do at the right time.
you know, we would be bestfriends now if all the little things didnt break us. i miss you, and i wish you well.
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when there's so much drama going on, you take a step back.
because i cant be bothered in being involved in all those politics.
i dont need to be at the center of attraction.
i'm happier with the people who matter, who will always be there.
no justification needed.
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days are spent sleeping whenever i get back from class,
nights are spent emailing.
seeking and holding on tightly to my white stone,
to what matters the most and to Whose favour i want to seek.
the One who sits on the throne of my heart,
the One who is the Shepherd of my soul.
like Fire refines glass.
