Sunday, May 06, 2007 @4:26 AM
its 4.30am on my clock. i'm supposed to be in bed because i have to be up in 3 hours exactly for church.
i think i took a nap too long just now.
cant sleep. cant study.
the weekend (whats of it so far) has been pretty bad. the things, that upset me:
1) overslept on fri morning and missed bsd and mgc test. its the 2nd time i am missing mgc test.
2) didnt have enough sleep on friday night and had first aid the entire day on saturday.
3) first aid was b-o-r-i-n-g.
4) did really badly for my bsd test. and its so easy i wont be surprised if half the class got full marks. serious!
5) went to wooly's for grocery shopping and they didnt have any red rock. nor anything nice on sale.
6) dinner on saturday was weird. then locked myself out of my room.
7) its been affecting me so much, i feel myself falling into it all over again.
8) i realised i cant really trust you.
9) i dont have the time to even sleep and study, let alone shop.
sigh. ohwell.
thank God for people like gertrude and abi and ophee who are always there to encourage and stand by me and tell me it'd all be fine. for all those BIG BIG HUGS and making coming back to hall each day so fun. for the endless late night suppers and girltalk.
baskinrobbins on friday night was, HEAVENLY. i ate a brownie, and 2 sccops. world class chocolate and strawberry cheesecake(: ooh, i get a sugar high(: not to mention the ciao italia tiramisu pam helped me get(: indulgences, ah indulgences.
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we're going for SPIDEY3 this tuesday(: which means i will be out 9am till i dont know what time. and then opposite sex party on friday. bladders tried on my spag that day to see if he could wear it as a costume for opposite sex. my screams didnt help. the entire spag was stretched to about twice its size in his huge body. at first i told him i'll only let him try it if he buys it over from me. but that guy didnt even care he just stretched the small piece of cotton over his head. gertrude and i were so disgusted i told him i dont want it back ever again. LOL.
ah, we need to find guy clothes soon.
the nus ple have all ended their exams. and i am still fooling around with my school work here.
SIGH.
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cow and hannah i wish so much u guys were here to share everything with me. there's so much i need to say, and more builds up each time. i feel i could spill over from all thats within me; so much has been happening. i want to sit down with you and talk till all the shops close, till we are tired and till cow gets her sore throat. to keep buying drinks cos we're so thirsty, and updating everything. i miss you both so much. i know you'd understand everything thats been happening, i know you'd make me feel much better. i know we'll build each other up in friendship like we always have.
i'm missing you both like crazy. its been oversaid, but who cares.
going home brings mixed feelings, but hannah will be back. and cow, you must make time for us ok. i've got endless stories to tell you.
oh, COW AND HANNAH! my friend gertrude is coming to spore in june too! and we'll bring her to tour the place. how exciting! and i want you both to meet all the ple i hang out with her. because they're so lovely and great you'll love them as much.
and i know what you're thinking now cow- DONT WORRY YOU HAVENT BEEN REPLACED LAH. STILL MY BESTEST GIRL(:(:(:
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falling to my knees, because i know i'm so inadequate, so undeserving of this Love.
