i feel funny today. its not en emotionally topsy turvy day. neither happy nor sad, just had some thoughts that rather surprised me.
its weird. i dont know what to think of alot of stuff anymore.
its receiving mixed responses. no, not good.

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woke up today because i had a dream that i had a mask on me and it was smothering me. when i got up i realised i was tangled up in sheets and they covered up to my nose. at least it was a dream. it feels terrible to be smothered.

i've been thinking alot about stuff. more so now that i'm going home.

i miss you all but part of me just wants to stay here. adjusted to the life here, adjusted to the momentum.

you know, i've been praying so hard. because i want to do it knowing its His will, not mine. we'll see about things. really, we will.

i dont like to be disappointed. but somehow things around me get pretty disappointing these days. dont know what to expect of things anymore. ohwell.




yes i know i should study. because i see myself wasting away my time and i can see my results already. no its not pretty. sigh. why like that.

♥ fancy pink
in vintage.