Thursday, May 10, 2007 @7:45 PM
i dont like having cramps, but thats not the point.
rushed to do my part for the project today but the group leader decided not to have a meeting after all, or maybe she just forgot. oh well, ponned fahb lect for nothing.
during dtech lab i heard that fcd results were out. i came back, checked it, and went like, what the hell. i didnt do fantastically well, but yeah, good enough for the hd. the 'whatthehell' bit came because the lit review was pretty disgusting i would have been relieved to pass. no modesty here, i seriously mean it. the only decent essay i've written here is the bsd one, but even though it made for a hd, its only the bare minimum of decent. both lit review and fahb, was, downright disgusting.
its the kind of thing you're so ashamed to show anyone and say what you've got, because, you know very well you dont deserve it for the shit you wrote. AND the effort put in, was, well, not proportionate. but dont worry, whoever is reading this isn't (well, SHOULDN'T) be anyone who knows what bsd or dtech or whatsoever is; except maybe pam and abi. abi never reads anyway (haha) and i trust pam(:
oh! pam congrats on doing fantabulusly well for yr fahb essay! and abi dearie congrats on topping your class for yr physics test! i'm so proud of you guys(:
okay, back to the fcd thing. ROAR. you know this isnt good. isnt good at all. because i cant be motivated when i put in shit effort and get a hd damnit. it supposed to be "put in alot of hard work, am satisfied and then get a hd". or, "put in shit and get a pass" because either way i will have some kind of motivation. WHICH IS SERIOUSLY WHAT I NEED NOW, if i dont want to remain as a yr1 dent student next year.
you should see the number of motication posters i stick on my wall. oh, and they are self-made too. cool huh;)
i will take some pictures of my messy messy hall room (i dont know anyone with a room messier than mine) and post them up here.
gonna go boil water and attempt some fahb notes. when i say attempt fahb notes, i mean attempt writing fahb notes, not attempt reading fahb notes. HAH.
oh, and i still have cramps:(
bummer.
